Update of the 2 week :)

Typing down this post now, i am currently listening to RACHMANINOFF: Rhapsody on a Theme by Paganini. Hmm this song bring back memory of my past as I played this song for my music o-level audition whn i was in sec 3. hahahha hmm tht was far to long ago man, but cannot believe i fail cos of my practical hahaha hmm they did not tell me what i fail but i know it was always practical cos i need to play my clarinet in front of three people tht would judge me hahahah. hmm
RACHMANINOFF: Rhapsody on a Theme by Paganini was the first song, i played the second song was Londonderry Air, which have the same tune as Danny Boy. hmm tht was the two song tht i failed zzzz hahaha but the theory was easy tht wat i know hahah cos i sleep for 40 min i think >.< 

Okay enough abt my ancient history life. hmm is was the beginning of July last week haha must say tht is have been suck bah hahha hmm cos got rejected by a girl whn i confess to her and after tht it really ruin the whole week. hmm totally no mood to do any work but i simply wear the stupid mask of nothing happen face to work and home hahah guess i am good at doing this. cannot blame bah since secondary school i have been doing this just to avoid ppl or family for asking me, yes they ask me cos they care but it is just tht sometime, i dun wan to feel a burden to thm. ever since secondary school i have been standing alone and try or rather dun wan to rely on ppl but sometime it is hard, so i just pretend tht nothing happen on my face but deep inside me i am hurt. hmm guess this kind of habit need to stop i think?! hahhahaa.

Ppl always ask me why i am not always happy or such, my answer is tht. it is not tht i dun wan to be happy, but just tht i know tht my happiness will not last tht long. tht why rather thn having up and down, i rather have down only okay lah sometime up but mostly down. cos if i am down nothing worst could have happen cos i am always prepare with this feeling mah so just okay loh zzzzz. hahahaha

Oh last friday was a terrible day, it is not cos of wat loh. just tht cos of the experiment tht i am doing in internship does not goes well. feel suck as i put in 100% thn does not turn well zzzz hais. hahah but my supervisor was there to like somewhat cheer my up i guess by saying this is science etc so no need feel upset cos not always all experiment will be good etc need to face some hardship all. hahaha and today he also talk abt something else, hmm he is a good man, always crack up joke whn he got nothing to do and give good advice. some of it is funny but it is true. seriously true hahahaha. oh and it is kinda of sad bah cos internship is ending soon next friday :( gonna miss thm in the lab cos they have been nice to me and very funny also hahahaha. hais after internship end i got 4 days of rest after tht need to register for FYP hais my day could not get any better ya hahaha hmm guess this is so call the final lap uh tht why need to do this kinda of things. but i must say tht after going through internship it open a path for me on the course i wanna study in uni. cos i been aiming for a single course only zzz, after intern i am thinking of another possible course tht would interest me loh.

oh oh tmr half day loh hahahaha weeee they gonna treat us for lunch weeeee hope can snap many pic and post i guess hahaha >< and arghhh fasting months coming also damn man hahaha zzzz.

oh before i forget, now days i am into poem and such zzz dun know why but sometime i feel tht it explain my feeling better thn wat i wanna say loh so yea. hahah 

"Cold dew softly covers the stone steps and gently wets my feet.  The night is deep, as I return to my room, the lonely moonlight follows me".  Li Bai

this poem was by Li Bai, as it describe abt the women he love. hmm can feel the loneliness and sadness as he went home alone without the women he love.