hmmm really dun know how to start but just start i guess hahahahah.
my dad must be barking mad or he maybe on pot i guess. seriously telling me tht he wan to arrange my marriage with one of his niece (my grandfather's brother/sister's son/daughter's granddaughter). told me to get to know her first thn if can do an engagement ceremony. he must be mad really really mad, crazy for me to have arrange marriage is not heard off ( i guess have bah but i denying it >.<). hais but luckly my granddad and mum oppose to his decision, mum and granddad say tht i must study and become successful etc. hahahahha if they know tht i got rejected twice uh, maybe they will be shock bah uh hahahah for me tht always say tht i will find a wife whn i have a stable income and job. hais sometime i just dun know or understand myself i guess, cos maybe to see wat others have and wan it myself or rather i just wan tht person cos i really like? sometime i guess the principle tht i build for myself is not always right bah as my feeling can over-rule thm hahaha.
hahhaha sometime i just wish she is next to me and i could bring her happiness, seeing or sometime hearing her sad make my heart pain. hmmm maybe i just not her knight in shiny armor i guess. my fren always say tht dun give up cos of one girl as there is other girl out there, but uh it is tht girl tht could make me happy n feel enlightenment tht why i would wan her to be mine. not any random girl tht could make me tht kinda feeling, and i also dun fall in love easily so yeap it is hard for a girl i know to melt away my icy heart.
okie i guess i should stop here about my love life or rather one sided love life hahahahah.
hmm a bit of update, FYP thingy have not been good as i need to ask someone for project in uni, cos the school dun wan accept my team and give me stupid list of project to do zzzzzzz. hahha now need to wait for the dr to write the proposal and give my school for approval just hope it work man if not it will be depressing. and i am thinking to take my BMAT test next year, just so tht i would not feel stress etc as next sem going to be my final sem in poly life, i wan it to be a blast! booom boooom hahahahahahha
