hmmm i dun know why i keep feeling this way. find tht i am damn pathetic and damn stupid at the same time. i always tell myself tht i am not a normal human tht why i cannot be happy like wat normal human felt. but to say tht i dun wan to be happy is it just a lie, i also wan to feel happy, i also wan to find someone tht can make me feel happy and also cover the empty space in my heart. i wan to be a normal human or rather a normal person, doing the things i do, become workaholic is jsut a way for me to prevent myself for feeling alone and lonely. why ppl can't understand tht.............. or maybe i am fated to be alone and feel lonely and just do what i did best. just see what happiness is from other ppl sometime make me mad and angry at myself.
